Bey is in love.

With you, and all your little things.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH no, just joking.

I'm so happy, becuase finally the boy I'm in love with from september texted me!
He is so cute and funny, and I hope he likes me too, I'll be so happy.
I don't want to tell him about my love, but... I will.

In this last three days I had lot of fun, I talked with some classmates I never talked to, and they are so funny! I love them!

Nothing.

bye.

good, hate school!

Yes, you understood!
No, I don't hate school like institution, but I hate it for teachers and people.
That's the fact: on the next three days we are free at school, not everyone, who wants can continue with normal lessons, but in alternative you can do something else, labs, clubs...so I decided to join the Music club, but NO! My maths' teacher decided to do a test tomorrow. I hate her.

Her and Ginger. Oh yes, always Ginger. I fuckin hate her. You can't understand, really.
She loves to stole my friends and ruin all my relationships.

I think I'll kill her.

interesting? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA nothing.

What I did today?
...
...
...
NOTHING.

Life is so boring when you are sick. Oh, silly fever.

I realized that I talk about me, and my life, but I never talked about myself.

Here you are a short presentation of me:
My name is Abbey and actually I'm 15. My birthday is in June.
I have dark blond hair and really cute blue eyes.
My nature? I'm cynical and ironic, I hate being sweet.

That's all.

She is like a princess.

I have fever. I'm fucking sick.

OK, It doesn't matter.
Here the problem is Frave (Frida+Dave). Always the same fucking problem.
Two years ago she wrote a post on facebook saying about a joke she did him.
It was a stupid joke, and I understood that when he realized it was a joke, he started to kiss her. OK.

But then I read the comments. 'Dave: I LOVE YOU FRIDA.'

My heart. BOOM. With a stupid comment he broked my little heart.
I felt hurt. It's so fuckin' orrible.

So I talked with him. My intentions were to insult him, to say him everything what I feel. but I didn't.
He have this incredible power to make people feel at ease, and it's pretty good for him. Only this can save him.

What else? I wanted to talk with Frida, and I discovered why he thinks she is beautiful.
She is like a princess. She is delicate, never swear. Exactly the opposite of me.
I swear, always. I love getting drunk, alcool.
She acts like a real GIRL.

everything is going bad.

Why? What a silly question.
I talked with Dave, and he thinks I'm angry with him, but I'm not.
I'm a stupid girl, a selfish silly girl. But, what can I do?
He was my first crusch, but we prefered to keep quiet, and it was the best/worst decision I ever made.
But it's okay, now we are best friends, but when I think of an engaged Dave, I feel hurt and betrayed.
But who I am to prevent their story? None.

I feel so selfish.

And now Hiya says that I'm not her best friend.

I wanna die.

turn back?

I had no time to write about past days, sorry.
What happened?
My best friends officialized his love story, and he did her a love declaration. Then he went to her house and they started to... kissing.... frantically.
Well, they looked like two cows busy with their monthly cleaning. It was so scary and annoying.
He said me they will allow themself in a short time... I can't believe him.
In this last week he said me lots of lies.

He changed.
She changed him.

What about me?
Yesterday I went out with Claire, Ellie and... Sam.
At the first I thought 'When I will see him, I'll insult him like a dick.'
But it hasn't happened. I love him, again.

Yes, I do.

good news? bad news.

Nothing interesting happened in my whole life.
Everything looks okay, but when you try searching deeply you'll find and understand that's all wrong.

Okay, the problem is Ginger. She hates me or she loves me?
I really can't understand.
She said that i'm fake, but she continues to be my friend, why?

so silly.

I hate tuesdays. I really hate them.
On tuesdays I'm always sleepy.
But it isn't the worst problem. Yes, going to school it's the problem, but just to make it worse, on our PE lesson we have Hip Hop.
You can say: omg, Hip Hop is so swag!
Yes it is, but I can't dance at all. And our choreographer placed me in the first row. I can't, I can't.
And it doesn't include only our class, there is a girl and a boy of another class, and they do hip hop as a sport.
Omg. When I mistake I feel like everybody is watching me, that's so annoying.
But, I admit, is very funny.
The first lesson I was angry, and I had no fun at all, but I think it was because I was so ostinate.
But now. I just wanna know: who will see this exibiton? Yes, in May we'll do an exibition of this choreography, I'll do fools of myself, It's obviously, but Simon. He can't see me. I don't want him to see me.
No, remember, he likes cute girls.
And you, Abbey, you look like a boy. I know.
My mirror's talked.

AND NOW, LET'S GO WITH THE GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD NEWS!
Ginger is in love with a boy c:
He is so so cute. Very cute, he looks like...ehmm...a twitter's icon boy. Yes yes.
I wanna help her, but she isn't cute. Yes, she looks like a llama. I'll transform her.

But now, let's talk about meh (yo.)
Oh wow. Okay, with Sam... we decided it's better to remain friends, for Claire's feelings.
And now, I like a boy, well, he is my secret crush from the first day of school. His name is Simon, he is really cute, and  think he looks like Liam Payne. asdfghjkl
But his nature, Aurora said me he is very nice, but he betrayed lots of times all his girlfriends... Bad boy.

I hate you, I miss you.

Okay, I know, no I didn't forgot to write, but I really couldn't. I had to translate all af my posts in english (they were in Italian) and I had lots of spanish homerworks, so sorry.
I did a big mistake, because during this fuckin weekend happend a lot of things.

Yes, well, yesterday Claire, a friend of mine, woke me up with a message 'hey, sam said me that I?m so nice and beautiful'. I read this, and I was like: ò.ò.
Sam always said me that he loves me. And now he wants to go with one of my best friends? No, It isn't possible. It was the first time I fallen in love with someone, and he broke me inside. I passed all morning crying, but I wasn't angry with Claire. It wasn't her fault. Okay, she like him, but it isn't my problem.
Then, I told her all the story with Sam, and she inderstood too he is an idiot. Fuckin dumb. Well, Claire, Aurora, Martina, Sarah and Sam has a band, and now he ruined at all.

On the evening he tell me sorry, but I can't apologize him. I really can't.

Well, today I talked with Claire, and she say she don't wanna apologize him too lol.
And now I have fever. Here is too cold. Fuck.

But now there is a question: who do you miss?
Well, that's complicated.
A month ago I go out with Aurora's friend. He is in love with me, but I'm not.
It was a comlete disaster, he looked like a maniac, I swear.

But now I miss him. Omg. That's so weird.

i can't.

i can't accept that he have a girlfriend.
well, we always were the loser's trio, me, ellie and dave, the perfect trio.
we were only us, our laughs, our jokes. when one of us misses it wasn't the same, we were complete; in three.
and if now frida (dave's gf) prevent him to go out with us?
she already was jealous of us. tsk. i put a vulldozer in her ass.
but the worst will come if she came out with us. trauma. probably i'll throw her in a drain.
and now there is ginger with her silly questions, shit, she is so boring.

normal.

School: normal. Always the same things. I had an italian quiz and I had to write a sort of fairytale. I was sleepy, and I had to recicle a half of this story because I had no time to copy it.
Social life: eventful. With Ginger always the same stupid fights, she is childish, she offended and then she acts like I'm her idol.
Regarding my true friends, well, Aurora is looking for a boyfriend for me, the school's agent is flirting with me and my best friend found a girlfriend.
The last one broke me.
But I have to admit that is my fault, iI talked with her 'crush' and I really liked her, I wanted to see them together and probably my mind was fake like a 7 cent's coin. But I wanted it, she is so cute, and maybe she can satisfy him.
But I'm scared that all will change. I'm saying, I'm happy for them, that he is happy now, but I don't want that someone take him away from me.
I can also say that our trio is compesed by me, Elllie and Dave (him), and it's the forever alone's trio. Engaging is like breake a law.
I don't want to break them relationship, but today I acted so bad with him. I showed myself sad  and I started to tease.
I don't know how he can bear me, really.

stay weird.

oggi: felice.
sono andata a prendere il biglietto per il concerto dei greenday a rho. sono felicissima asdfghjkl. l'ho detto a ginger e lei fa la depressa. fuck.
i miei non sono d'accordo ma okay, li convincerò.

Today: Happy :)
I bought Green Day's concert's ticket c: I'm so happy asdfghjkl. I said it to Ginger but she wants to be depressed, Fuck.
My parents don't agree, but okay, I'll persuade them.

ruined.

Okay, admit it, you all agree to ruin my life.
Hiya, my best friend, said sorry to me, and now Ginger is angry. Fuck.
I have a best friend, she has to accept.
And the best is when someone talks you about its problems EVERY fuckin time that I'm angry or sad. Fuck.

vulnerable.

Oh, don't worry, I can't forgive you! Like everyone does with me.
Well, they don't forget me, it's too difficult to forget me; I can say that they search me only to insult me or whe they have to reproach me of something.
It just happened.
Me and my classmate, Ginger, clarified and now she is so obsessed with me, and my best friend is jealous,
Okay, she isn't a 'traditional best friend', she is a remote firend, like a pen friend, yes.
Anyway, she is jealous, and she found a new friend, veri SWAAAAG, I can say.
Cool, now she 'recicle' me and Ginger is angry too.
Shitty day, come to me!

first holiday's day.

From the title you can understand everything.
Yes, you can lol
Tomorrow I really can't sleep, and I think I falled asleep at two a.m.
The morning I woke up at 6:30. I got up, I go to the mirror and I was like the sister of Bob Marley or Jimi Hendrix after a rave party. Eye circles reached the chin, but okay, lol.
I had breakfast, I dressed etc. I was fast like a sloth and I didn't noticed the time.
Yes, I leaved my home very late and I almast missed the bus, but I took it! TA TA TA!
I go to school, and I was so sleepy. I couldn't walk, I swear.
The first and secound hour I had english. My teacher is so crazy, and her hobby is to invent stupid proverbs. Okay.
First break comes, and like all days, I wanted to walk throught the school with Aurora, but... I saw the guy I like with a classmate of mine. Fuck.
Why? Why is he with her?
Okay, he is a bit loser, and she also. That's all.

dumb.

yes, you are a dumb.
i talked with ginger, and the song's lyrics weren't all against me, or written to make me feel bad.
i'm so stupid.

mistake.

mistake, yes.
i'm a mistake, for everyone.
maybe it's better to explain the reason of my agony.
everything started the first day of school; generally i'm a very sociable girl, i talk to everyone.
then, i saw this girl, she seemed a little bit alone, so i talked to her.
we became friends, we liked the same things, but being with her i realized she was so 'childish', so we 'separate', but she wasn't alone; she was with her new friends and i turned back to my company.
i thought everything was ok, at school we were normal friends, we laughed, but when christmas holiday came BOOM, disaster.
she started to write me in chat. at the beginning she was 'faint' and then she started to insult me.
i wasn't offended and i tell her what i thought about her, and obviously she took this as an offense.
we clarify and i thought our fights were ended, BUT NOT. she wanted to fight, again.
she said she writed two songs called 'mistake' and 'she did' saying that i called her 'mistake', but i didn't, fuck.
i forget all her insults, i forget all her childish attitudes, for her way to challenge me but she goes on.
i swear, i can't endure her. and she is in my class. shit, i want to put her head between two desks and crush it. ok, keep calm.
we will see.

why?

I'm larysa, I'm from italy and I don't know why I'm doing this.
I have friends, but I never tell him about me, never.
I tried, but i'm scared. yes, I'm strange, but my role has always been of  'confessional'.
Everyone tells me about their stories, and me, I'm a subspiece of psychologist. That's cool. lol

I just wanna make you know that this blog isn't 'private', but I will talk about lots of things c:

Ok, bye for now.