everything is going bad.

Why? What a silly question.
I talked with Dave, and he thinks I'm angry with him, but I'm not.
I'm a stupid girl, a selfish silly girl. But, what can I do?
He was my first crusch, but we prefered to keep quiet, and it was the best/worst decision I ever made.
But it's okay, now we are best friends, but when I think of an engaged Dave, I feel hurt and betrayed.
But who I am to prevent their story? None.

I feel so selfish.

And now Hiya says that I'm not her best friend.

I wanna die.